Derek’s career had moved fast. He had loved acting as a child but when it was time for college the performing arts was out of the question. It wasn’t the kind of career a gentleman chose. Besides, what opportunities were there in Scotland? None. His mother,Gillian, a traditional proud Scot, insisted he pick a respectable profession, so Derek chose law. He made honor roll in high school and excelled at debate, becoming a solicitor seemed the perfect choice.
Gillian wasn’t well-to-do; average middle class better described her upbringing. Her father had been a welder and her mother a housewife. Gillian had married young to a fisherman, had three children and then was left to care for them on her own. She had been a good cook and worked in restaurants as a chef while Derek, his older brother Carl and his older sister Fiona were growing up. Once the children had all left the nest Gillian opened a bakery of her own in Inverness in the Highlands. She was self-sufficient and enjoyed her new found freedom.
Law school didn’t agree with Derek, or one might say he didn’t agree with Law school. He didn’t agree with the early hours, endless chapters of homework or lugging around the heavy books. But Derek loved his mother and decided he would make her proud. He worked hard and was unparalleled in his studies. He had honors and was president of the Law Society. At first glance you couldn’t tell Derek’s passion wasn’t law.
Upon closer inspection it was apparent that Derek would not become a lawyer. Many nights were spent at the local pub, drinking and singing with the band and barely getting home before dawn. Derek enjoyed liquor in any form. Along with the liquor were the many women in his life. He was with no one in particular, the more variety the better. The women knew there were others and they didn’t care. To be on Derek’s arm, even just for one night was a privilege in its self. He was popular, dashing and so irresistible. He oozed charm and finesse; he had a gift for saying the right thing and sounding like he meant it. It was powerful stuff and Derek knew how to use it.
His last year of school Derek finally came to the realization that law was not going to fulfill him. All the women were not going to fill the void. The most difficult task was to tell his mother. What would he say and how would she react? She had always been so supportive of Derek as he grew up. She really loved telling her friends her son was going to be a lawyer. Worse still was to tell her what career he really wanted...acting. He had to have a plan.
Derek decided after graduation and his internship he would give Gillian the bad news. Fate had a plan of her own. Derek headed to London to his internship to find the office abandoned. The company had had a run in with the police and decided to close its doors and sneak out of town. Derek saw this as a great way to end his law career. The celebration ended two weeks later in an alley between a dumpster and an abandoned crate. Derek couldn’t remember how he got there or who he had been with. He’d lost his wallet, his keys and his underwear. His head felt like it had cracked opened and his brains would spill onto the pavement. He knew he couldn’t go home like this. So Derek called a friend.
Craig had been Derek’s buddy since childhood. Tall, lanky and with a gift of gab, Craig was very creative. His parents were artists and encouraged him to pursue screenwriting. They’d grown up together and had few secrets from each other. Craig had moved to London just after high school. His dream had been to be a playwright. Craig had acted in plays with Derek in grammar school and had written plays for Derek in high school. Craig’s parents had been products of the 60’s and felt his “free spirit” needed to soar. He worked hard in London trying to sell his plays to the theater but he was an unknown and no one was interested. So Craig worked backstage at the playhouse part time and at the local TV station the rest of the time. At the theater Craig worked on sets and lighting. At the TV station he learned how to use the cameras and teleprompter. In his spare time, what little there was, Craig still wrote plays.
Craig had a small flat but willingly shared it with Derek while he figured out his next move. Derek’s first step was to visit the playhouse. The producer quietly listened to Derek’s plea to hire him...to do anything at the theater. The producer was in the early stages of a new play and was in need of a good supporting actor. He let Derek read, expecting failure and disappointment. To his amazement Derek was good. Really good. Derek had a job! He was an actor! Now to tell his mother....
Derek’s mother knew about his carousing ways and he figured she would blame that on him losing his prospective law career. Derek also knew if he was to take this new vocation serious, and Gillian was to accept it, he needed her to know how important this was to him. Derek quit drinking cold turkey, started going to bed by midnight and stopped having casual sex with every woman that flirted with him. His new career needed to take precedence.
After landing the supporting roll in the current play at the London Playhouse, Derek journeyed home to give his news to Gillian. He arrived home in time for dinner. The aroma of lamb and potatoes filled his senses, reminding him of his childhood. He felt more and more like a youth coming to tell his mom about the school yard brawl he was suspended for.
“Mom, I have some important news for you”, he announced in a voice quieter than he planned.
“Derek, what’s wrong. You look like you’ve eaten something sour. Are you feeling ill?,” Gillian questioned using her best concerned parent look.
“Mom, please, sit down.”
Gillian moved to the sofa and sat down.
“Derek, your worrying me. What’s wrong?”
“Mom, I have quit law. Before you say anything, you knew I had no passion for it. It didn’t suit me.”
Gillian started to interrupt. She couldn’t believe what she was hearing. Her son the lawyer...what was going to come of him? As her mind reeled she heard him say something about not drinking and a play? Was she hearing things?
“Mom, I want to be an actor. I have a job. I’m in a play at the London Playhouse. I’m staying with Craig. I no longer drink. Please don’t be mad at me. I really want this. Its very important to me. Please let me prove it to you”, Derek pleaded. He was in agony as he waited for Gillian to say something.
Gillian focused, hanging on his every word. She watched his face as he desperately tried to convince her of his good intentions. She knew her son had the ability to succeed at anything he set his mind to. She recognized the steel determination in his voice despite his fear of disappointing her. She took a deep breath.
“Ok. I hear you. I’m not saying I agree, yet, but I will support you and stand by you.”
Derek gave his mother a huge bear hug. He felt the weight of the world fall from his shoulders. That night he had the first peaceful sleep in years; no nightmares of failures to come, just tranquil, undisturbed slumber.
Derek did well in the theater. His first role as supporting actor garnered praise from the theatrical community. His next three roles were leads and proved he was talented and convincing in each character he played.
During his role as lead in “Tartuffe” an American producer expressed interest in Derek coming to the States to be in his movie. Derek accepted the challenge and moved to Hollywood. Gillian was proud of her son’s accomplishments and made him promise to visit her often. His first film was nominal but the reviews were outstanding. Derek’s confidence grew. His next film garnered accolades from his peers. He was now able to pick and choose his roles, and most were high dollar flicks. Derek’s passion became an obsession. He was a dedicated professional. Other actors rallied to work with him. He was in demand and that was important in Hollywood. Derek realized as he went from film to film that his popularity was fleeting. Anytime he could fall off the pedestal and go back to obscurity.
Derek’s stunning good looks during college only intensified as he aged. By forty Derek was considered one of the best looking men in Hollywood. With experience he learned not to take himself so serious and played practical jokes on set. Crews and actors enjoyed working with him. He made everyone feel at ease. Gossip rags speculated on his love life. He was a relentless flirt but Derek kept his affairs discreet. By the time the paparazzi suspected a romance it was over or they guessed wrong all together.
Derek’s career was in the fast lane but his love life was lousy. He tried dating actresses but their careers pulled them to opposite sides of the globe. Never spending time with each other didn’t help their relationship. He tried dating women out of the entertainment industries but they didn’t like his long hours and all the travel. So Derek stopped dating altogether. He let the gossip magazines and TV shows believe there were multitudes of women flowing in and out of his life, keeping the reputation of a womanizer. Fans loved speculating who his next date would be so he gave them things to speculate about. In truth, Derek was so busy with his career, acting in lead roles, directing and producing, there was little time to fit dating in.
Derek and Alex sat at a table in the far corner away from the windows of the deli. They ordered dinner and talked about Dallas. Derek was curious what Alex did for a living, was she married and why she watched so many movies.
Alex laughed, “Because I have a boring life.”
Derek replied, “I doubt that. You said you’re married and have a daughter. That must keep you busy?”
“Oh please. My husband works a lot and my daughter is in school and isn’t home much. I have a question for you.”
Derek looked wary, “Ok, shoot!”
“You were in an interview a while ago and the interviewer asked if you had ever written a love letter. You said yes. Who was she?” Alex remembered that faraway look in his eye in that interview. She wanted to know who stole his heart.
“Oh, that was a long time ago. Back in college. She’s married now. Why?” Derek had that same faraway look Alex remembered from the interview.
“Because its obvious you really loved her. And with all the women you have been associated with I’m curious who could have actually had a hold on your heart.”
Derek was very somber, “Yeah well.” Then the wall went up and the jokes started. “She had a big black mole on her nose and it just wasn’t going to work! Hahaha!” The mood had totally changed.
Alex tried to go back, “You’ve dated many women. What’s your dream woman?”
“Dream woman? Hmmmm...You first, what’s your dream man? Your husband? He must fit the bill? You’ve been married a long time.” Derek was enjoying this question much better.
Alex was pensive.
“My dream man. Physically - dark hair, light eyes, 5 o’clock shadow or a thin beard, tall - over 6 foot, complicated - not easy to figure out - I like a bit of a challenge, a sense of humor - in general and about himself, and, no, this does not describe my husband.”
Derek was deep in thought. Suddenly he snapped out of it.
“Hey, that’s me! No fair!” He was roaring with laughter.
“It’s fair. You asked!”
“But you really don’t know me.” Derek was still laughing but didn’t like to be on a pedestal. He knew he had a lot of faults that Alex didn’t know.
“You just said I described you. So obviously I know you better than you expected.” Alex was tickled she was making Derek squirm a bit. “Your turn.”
Derek thought about what he truly wanted in a mate.
“She’d have to be patient and spontaneous, passionate and creative, and be able to deal with all the quirky parts of my personality. She’d be no taller than 5’8”, probably have dark hair and eyes that reflect her soul. She’d have to enjoy the outdoors and be physically active”, Derek had a mischievous look in his eyes.
“How old should she be?”
“Does it matter? As long as she meets the other criteria?”
“Well,” Alex knew Derek was missing one small detail. “You told a reporter in an interview that you still wanted the wife, children and a white picket fence. You’re not getting any younger, no offense, and your wife would need to be probably twenty-five to thirty-five if you want children.”
Derek hadn’t been thinking along those lines. “I think twenty-five is too young for me. At least the ones I have met so far. Why not over thirty-five?”
“Most women prefer not to have children in their forties. You could always adopt. Have you thought about how soon you’ll want to have children?” Alex was enjoying this. She really had Derek thinking. He had been spending most of his time enjoying himself and working. A family had not been on his mind.
“I’m not ready for any right now! Maybe five or ten years...”
“Derek, you’ll be 50. You’re children won’t be going to college until your 70. You’ll be one of the oldest dads at graduation. I know your career is paramount right now but you need to prioritize. You could marry a woman with adult children and just go right into being a granddad...” Alex could see the visions going through Derek’s mind. She couldn’t help but smile at his expression.
“Ok, you bring up some good points. I’ll have to rethink things some. Damn! You’ve messed up my impulsiveness! Woman! Ugh!” Derek was frustrated. He loved being spur of the moment. He also knew his mom wanted him to settle down. He just wasn’t ready.
“Quit worrying! It was a fantasy remember? Not real life. Geez, calm down!” Alex liked seeing Derek off his game. In interviews he always seemed to have the upper hand, always in control.
“What about her career? Actor or in the entertainment business?”
“No, I don’t think so. We would always be going in different directions?” Derek suddenly grinned his famous crooked smile, “Now that you’ve stressed me, we need to go have some fun! Come on!”
Derek got up, grabbed Alex’s hand and dragged her out of the deli. The car careened up 2nd Avenue to a pub Derek frequented when he was in New York. The pub was a place he could be himself. It was crowded, smoky and loud. There was a band playing and they all waved at Derek as he and Alex passed to a table.
They ordered sodas and when the band went on break they came to sit with Derek and Alex. Derek had known the guys since he bought his apartment in New York. He even sang a couple songs on the next set with the band. Alex couldn’t believe how much fun she was having.
After a couple of rowdy hours at the pub, Derek offered to take Alex back to her hotel. She had enjoyed her dream evening, spending time with Derek Dunbar as himself, no pretense, no cameras. As they neared her hotel she felt reality creeping in. She was just an ordinary woman and he was extraordinary, out of her league. At least she had the memory of this day.
Derek pulled up to the front of the hotel.
“Would you like to come up?”, Alex couldn’t believe she had said that! That was her, right? What was she thinking? Oh, he could just walk her to her door, harmless. She wasn’t his type anyway.
Derek gave her a warm, sweet smile and told her he would. Alex’s mind reeled. She knew he wouldn’t try anything; he’d been a gentleman all night.
Derek followed her into her forty-fourth floor room. It was simple but clean and understated. It was one of the nicest hotel rooms she’d ever stayed in. Alex didn’t travel much.
“Water? Its all I have”, Alex offered. In her head she thought, That was awful. I’m sure he can’t wait to leave.
Derek looked around. Then he looked at Alex. There was something about her. Something he was drawn to. She had her back to him when she offered the water. He advanced to within inches of her. In her ear he spoke in a quiet heavy Scots accent.
“No, that’s not all you have.”
Alex’s heart quickened. She felt every inch of her was radiating heat. Was she lightheaded?
Derek touched her shoulder and ever nerve in her body tingled. She was in physical pain. There was a definite ache she had never felt before. She turned to Derek and looked in his eyes. They were giant, blue pools, so clear and inviting. Alex could barely catch her breath.
“I...” Was all Alex could say.
“I don’t have a habit of seducing married women. I’ll not ask you to do something you’re not wanting to do”, Derek’s brogue was thick and husky.
Alex felt there was no air left in the room. She had never considered cheating on her husband. Josh wasn’t even on her mind. She was having a hard time focusing on not fainting.
Derek leaned in toward Alex’s neck. His breath was steamy and chills ran up her spine. Alex was dizzy. She leaned toward Derek and his burning lips grazed hers. Electricity streaked through Alex’s every nerve ending. She ached for him to touch her, to relieve her of the agony she was in. Their kiss deepened. Alex became weaker and grabbed the front of Derek’s shirt. She pulled him closer. Their bodies melded together.
Derek touched every inch of Alex’s yearning body, with his hands, with his mouth. Alex only wanted more. Alex responded to Derek as no other woman had. Everything he did, every where he touched elicited a desire for wanting more. Women had told him he was skilled but never such wanton abandonment. Alex was totally uninhibited.
Derek’s fingers were warm as he unbuttoned her blouse and caressed the valley between her breasts. Alex helped him off with his shirt, staring openly at his rippling abs and firm pecs. They both slid out of their jeans simultaneously. Derek took no pause at removing Alex’s bra in one quick movement. His eyes roamed over her, liking what he surveyed. Alex was grateful of her workouts and the time she had been spending on her physique. Five years earlier she would’ve been terribly self-conscious.
Derek’s hands and mouth explored Alex’s body. His touch caused excruciating desire that Alex had never experienced before. She ached for release. Alex’s responses to Derek fueled his need to consume her. Women responded to him but not like this. He could feel her body heat rising as he stroked her skin.
Alex gladly invited Derek between her legs. As his member glided into her Alex thought she would scream. Finally, the ache was being quenched! Alex didn’t know if she moaned or screamed, she just knew when ecstasy came it was like no other. Oh, she’d had orgasms before but this time she saw bright lights and swore she stopped breathing this time. This was the pinnacle!
Derek couldn’t believe his response to Alex. Never before had every nerve in his body been so heightened. Every move he made triggered a tingle from head to toe. When Alex reached her orgasm she dug her nails into Derek’s back. Derek in turn reached his peak and buried his face into Alex’s shoulder. Derek wasn’t sure when he started breathing again. He looked up as she gasped for air and opened her eyes. The two lay in silence, catching their breath, his shaft still resting inside her.
“Shit! What the bloody hell was that?” Derek had a knack for stating the obvious. He had never experienced anything like that before.
Alex could hardly speak. “Don’t move.”
Derek’s legs were weak, “No problem.”
“That was unbelievable!”, Alex was finally able to say between breaths.
They both lay there, trying to catch their breath. Alex looked up into Derek’s eyes and touch his cheek with her fingertips. She felt like this was a dream.
Derek studied Alex’s face, memorizing every detail.
“What?” Alex was becoming aroused again, realizing this moment was reality and she wanted to take advantage of every moment. She wanted to make this the most remarkable memory. She squirmed under Derek. Her hands exploring his neck and chest, lightly carving every detail.
“Alex, what are you doing?” Derek felt himself growing hard.
“Again?” Alex had a mischievous smile.
Derek obliged. Both became sweaty and exhausted for a second time.